Well this one was actually mind-boggling. Is that a word? Well anyway, I was looking through my pictures and to be honest I'm not really someone who likes to have their picture taken or take pictures, unless I'm wasted. Hence why all my pictures are all screwed up. Yeah.
So instead I chose several pictures that represents things that never fails to make me happy from one of my newest favourite sites we♥it.
It's been another grey-day t'day. Not very uplifting or inspiring at all. It's just been a dull day. I'm not even sure what I've done, if nothing at all?
This is a beautiful, yet dull picture. Pretty much sums up my mood right now. Blah.
I'm listening to John Mayer again, just reading books and kindof chillaxing for once. Since I've been all over the place and rather hysteric the last couple of days. Insane really.
I'm currently reading the fourth book in the Sookie Stackhouse series, since I ordered the whole set awhile ago. They are easy to read and funny. Not a book you need to use your brain for, which is rather relaxing.
Today went by pretty fast. I'm sadly developing some minor flu symptoms and I'm terrified that I'll actually get the flu. I so don't have the time or need for that.
I've been reading a book about Feng Shui lately and it got me wondering. Can you Feng Shui a Blog? I'll look that up and come back to that later.
This book tells you about cleaning up in your cluttered life and things like that. It's very interesting. As I type I am watching Scrubs, what have I learned from Scrubs today? That the Todd is...well...The Todd!
John Mayer's new album Battle Studies arrived yesterday. And I watched the first video I saw with John and the one that got me into his music in the first place. Bigger Than My Body:
You know those days when you kind of want to punch every single person you see in the face. just for the hell of it. Today, is one of those days. And to be honest that isn't very well...good since my line of work actually involves people.
But I have learned to keep my bursts of insanity in check (most of the time) so not a single mortal being has been harmed.
I bought the newest issue of Q today without really checking what/who was going to be in it. Because Q is just one of those magazines that always has something of interest to read. Imagine my pleasant surprise when I found not only one but two intervews with John Mayer. One about his Battle Studies Tour and another one about...well him in general and a lot about Twitter(hmm?). Brilliant. I actually ordered Battle Studies today and I am eagerly awaiting its arrival. *laughs manically*. Sorry, I'm rather hyper and well...tired toady. I drank some sort of weird "Fat Burning" Drink that had reached its expire-date. It was given to me just because of that fact actually...for free. It tastes funny...like Orange Soda without bubbles. To be honest it's slightly disgusting, I think I'll just pour it out.
I know I might have mentioned this earlier, but I really don't like Mondays. There's just something about Monday's that doesn't sit well with me. I'm never in a really good mood on Monday's and getting out of the bed is like torture.
But right now I'm in a pretty good mood since I'm listening to the most awesome John Mayer. Okay, i think I have gushed about him a wee too much lately, but I can't help it! I love his music. The lyrics, the sound and of course...his most impressive voice.
It's not a silly little moment, It's not the storm before the calm. This is the deep and dying breath of This love that we've been working on.
Can't seem to hold you like I want to So I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save you, We pulled too many false alarms.
We're going down, And you can see it too. We're going down, And you know that we're doomed. My dear, We're slow dancing in a burning room.
-John Mayer-
That song is absolutley brilliant, sincerely. Well enough about that I guess...
Don't really know what else to write, still at work, no more clients for today...So that's pretty bogus.
Today I have been trying to master Band Hero, lame I know but I think it's loads of fun. I sit there trying to hit the right notes on level EASY while Dweeb2# points out that he could do it better with the HARD level. I decided that I should be the bigger person and ignored him. How grown up of me.
I read something about fears today and it got me thinking...
What am I afraid of? Have I conquered any of my fears? And the answer is...well I am scared of Clowns, that'll probably never change. I find them utterly disturbing. I'm not very fond of rats...or any kind of rodent-like animal fro that matter. I mean Guniea-Pigs and Hamsters makes me queasy...they are basically rats with shorter tails, right? Porcelain Dolls creep me out(it's the eyes). And well...snakes aren't on my favorite things list- So yeah, I am a scaredy-cat. No doubt about that.
But I have conquered one of my biggest fears. When I was younger than I am today I used to be (excuse the following pun) deathly afraid of...well death.
If someone even mentioned death I got this unpleasant feeling at the pit of my stomach. I wanted to throw up and just not listen anymore. I used to wish for time to go slower so I wouldn't near the unavoidable fate that awaited me. But it wasn't just my own death that scared me, no it was everyone elses too. I visibly winced at the thought of losing a grandparent or anyone near me. That's not any way to live, is it?
But I got over it...and believe it or not it had alot to do with the film; Tuck Everlasting. And no that was not sarcasm I am comepletley serious here. The movie is basically about a family that are immortal, to keep it short. But that's not what made me think, no it's one line in the movie. That one line struck a cord in me. I quote; Don't be afraid of death. Be afraid of the unlived life.
That got me thinking. Why should I fear something that will happen? And I relized that I would never be able to live my life to the fullest if I feared death.
So I simply...stopped. Easy as that. I started using my head. I thought about it and that's one of the reasons to why I see life the way I see it now. Live life your way. Take one day at a time. That sort of thing...
Alot of our fears are comepletley irrational. Like my fear of Clowns but it's not like it's hurting me, like my fear of death did. So I'll just keep on being creeped out by Clowns and rodents. Just for the hell of it.
But enough of that. Now the song Stop This Train by John Mayer. Because I think it represents my thoughts alot. Because lets face it people, He's not singing about an actual train. I think he's singing about life, about getting older and not wanting that and in another way wanting it and about dying. I never feared getting older just what getting older led to-Nothing. Maybe we get reincarnated? Maybe we go to Narnia, who knows? But why should we fear it?
I love the line-I hate the speed it's going in-becuse that's how I feel. I may not fear the unavoidable anymore but I still think that my life is going by way too fast.
I've been absent from the Blog-verse again, haven't I? Um...Ooops?
No, seriously I haven't really had anything to write about and I've been busy...sort of. If you can call reading/watching Pride and Prejudice and having Mr. Darcy on my mind 24/7 busy. Joking.
I've been cleaning the house...my younger brother...lets call him Dweeb1#...turns...what 17(?) tomorrow(Yes sad bu true, I had to actually think about how old my brother is...things like age seem irrelevent to me and often slip my mind...sue me.). So the house had to be cleaned.
Last weekend I went with V to see New Moon. It was...okay. Considering the fact that the book was rather boring so how could the movie be anything but? Taylor Lautner made the movie a nudge better though(hello, he was shirtless like...practically the whole movie). To bad he's the same age as my brother...sigh.
I'm at work now...being awfully sneaky and updating...hehe...Joking, again. My last client left like...half an hour ago and I can't make myself do..well...anything. I know, I'm so "the F-word" lazy. (I'm trying to stop cussing)(It's not going so well).
On another note...John Mayer is a genius. He's like...amazing. I've been listening to his music continuously this past week and I am amazed. His voice literally gives me goosebumps. I don't think I'll ever tire of listening to all his songs. Amazing sound and lyrics.
Well..I think I should do something productive for once.
Over and Out.
This song is amazing. I love the original by Tom Petty...but there's just something about John's version. Totally Gnarlatious Dudes...